• Passed my very last subject
• Graduated from college
• Having two electric guitars (one is my somewhat dream guitar)
• Having a guitar multi-effects
• Completing Little Braver and I'm Alright (Almost completed) in guitar
• Having 3 band performances in an Anime Convetion
• Hearing awesome songs
• Upgraded the video card of my PC
• Enhancement in my internet connection
• Watching First Love, 49 days, and 1 Liter of Tears (became my favorite movies/TV series)
• Having a work, a cool and comfortable working environment
• Meeting new friends, both real life and virtually
• Being alive for 20 years
• Having my Family by my side, Mama, Papa, Sis.
• Having my Friends by my side.
• Having my one and only GOD.

Thanks for all the things that happened to me this year, above are the things that I remembered happened to me during this year, I might not be able to enumerate all because I forgot some, but I know they will remain in my heart.  So before this year ends, on this very last day of the year, I want to give thanks to those who became part of my year 2011, thank you guys! God bless Always :)

My 2nd attempt of covering Little Braver by Girls Dead Monster starring LiSA

Still not perfect.

Unfair situation

I think it's happening again, the one that happened to me while I'm taking my On-the-Job training last 2010, but this is worst.  I understand it when I was still a trainee, but now, it's not anymore.  It's boring here, I mean, there's nothing much to do, well of course I have, but it's like the work that is given to me can be finish in an hour, and  sometimes, less than an hour, and the rest is idle time, 8 hours of working is to much.  I have a driving force to keep me in this job, but still I also want an experience, a real experience.  I need a growth, I need to learn new things, but I can't get it.  Why I am always unlucky when in terms of acquiring a job.  It's seems I'm enjoying but the boring-ness is somewhat killing me.  If this still continue until my birthday comes, I have no choice but to quit this job.

Thanks to the owner of this phone, because that person made my night a blast.  With just a simple appreciation for my blog posts, she made me extremely  happy.  I really don't know how will I express the happiness I felt because of that appreciation, even words can't describe how happy I am.  So, then I just did something I am good at, I made a design, saying Thank you together with her favorite anime character.  And it turn out that she is now the one thanking me for what I did.  To cut the story short, we're both thankful for being friend with each other.

A while ago, it's only in her facebook wall, but now it's already in her phone.  I love it!

PS: Jireh Krisha Rapay is the name of that person :)

Defeat is just right beside me, waiting for me to recognize it.

I don't know why I don't have the power to change my wallpaper, I tried lately, but it turned out to put it back to her photo.

I am not given the chance to fight now because I'm destined to fight for someone someday.

I'm not given a chance to fight, but I still fought and now I realized that, well I should have realized earlier that I fought for battle that loses already, sounds like stupid but yeah I've done it.  It's not surrendering at all, but rather, I could say it's doing the right thing.  I am only giving pain to my self, in return I suffer.  It's okay to suffer if there is a reward waiting in the end, but in my part, I didn't see any reward waiting for me.  Well I used to see but I knew in my self that I only forced my self to believe that there is, and just hoping for a very impossible thing.  And now, it's time to stop giving pain to my self, and start cheering up, there is more to life like what I always saying.  If I focus only on one thing, I will surely miss other things that made this life beautiful and I know God doesn't want that to happened.  

God didn't gave me the chance to fight now because I'm destined to fight for someone someday.

The thing I must do, but I don't want.

I like you,

But you didn't like me

I recognize you,

But don't recognize me

I'm an idiot

And I know it

I became a fool

It's because of you

Yet I don't blame you

And still should have thanked you

For letting me experience

How sweet the feeling of love is

And from here, I must let go

Before it's too late

Though I don't want

I must do it.

Realization

Now I realized, suffering is useless.  If I suffer and punish my self by just mourning because of her, I'm a total idiot.  There's more to life, I always say that, and yes, there is!  If she's not for me then, she's not. I think I just over reacting when I think that she's the perfect one for me, my ideal girl.  She maybe the perfect one for me, but for her, I'm not, or even, I don't exist.  I already accepted the fact that I'm hopeless, and will never be recognized by her.  And from here, I must let go, before this feeling grow stronger.  I want to thank God and her for letting me experience this feeling again, because of that, I know in my self that I still know how to love.

Courage Toward Tomorrow

Asu He No Yuuki (Courage Toward Tomorrow)

Magic Knight Rayearth 1st Ending Theme

Vocals: Keiko Yoshinari

(English translation of the song)

With the best smile you have

Let's start pedaling really hard

Even if the wind wants to push you back

Don't be discouraged

A strength that wins over sorrow

You will be told softly

By aiming for the vast ocean

Go for it! Your eyes will someday

Bask in the light and start to shine

Turn your belief to go on

Do not give up the courage toward tomorrow

Stand with your back straight

Take a deep breath

If you always look down

Nothing changes

Straight along the rail of your heart

If you walk without looking back

Your dream will always come true

Go for it! Your tears will someday shine

Brighter than glittering jewels

Turn your pursuit for dreams

Without giving up the strength toward tomorrow

A strength that wins over sorrow

You will be told softly

By aiming for the vast ocean

Go for it! Your eyes will someday

Bask in the light and start to shine

Turn your belief to go on

Do not give up the courage toward tomorrow 

I lost without even having the chance to fight

It's finally over, right in front of me.  But I still want to hold on and to hope for that impossible thing to happen.  But in some other way, it gives me no choice but to quit.

A simple, yet impossible thing

As I wake up in the morning

I see a bright sunlight

Thinking that today will be a bright day,

looking forward for a special thing to happen.

But it seems that a bright day

is not always as bright as what I am right now

I'll be happy even just thinking of you,

but together with that happiness, it hurts inside.

I'm hoping only for a simple thing

and it's to be recognize by you.

And though it's only a simple wish

It seems impossible to happen.

Why it is sometimes, what we are giving

can't be given back to us?

We appreciate people the way they are

but why they can't recognize us?

I give every appreciation I see

and appreciated even the little things

But why it ends like this?

Felt no one appreciated me.

Sometimes there are things we really want

But we can't get it.

If we can't get it, we suffer

But still nothing will change.

I have no idea, why I feel like this

whether, this is real or not.

If this is not real, why do I suffer?

If this is real, still I suffer.

It's just the beginning

but I almost see the end.

I am trapped in a long lost tunnel

and the only way to the exit, is to give up.

It's hard to be strong
in a situation like this
It is dragging me down

giving me no choice but to quit.

I lied when I say I only want you to recognize me

But I want as well to be with you.

So even just one moment in my life,

I will feel complete.

A simple desire, A simple wish

A desire that can't be owned

A wish that can't be granted

Simple thing, but extraordinary feeling.

Desperate moves

I really don't know what is happening to me right now.  I am really desperate with her and I'm becoming more hopeless and helpless.  If this is not real, then why I feel like this?

It's now always happy moments

I was so unlucky this passed two days.  I've seen a post that almost affected my mood through out the day and I almost ran out of time making the ticket designs that is due last Friday before the dismissal time at the office.  On the second day, my phone got lost, the phone I used to listen music since I've sold my iPod for my guitar effects, I also use the phone for backing track when I do practice on my electric guitar, served also, obviously for communications with my family, friends, and my boss, but now it's gone, and it's very unfortunate.  I also didn't see the girl I like on the event I went off on the anime convention held at the World trade center Philippines.  

Karma is already on my way, the pay for all the wrong doings I've done.  I understand and deserve this.  I treat this as a lessons for me from God.  But I'm still hoping that all of these has a purpose, I know God has purpose for all these things that happened to me.  And I believe and trust God, that these unfortunate days will be paid of a greater and brighter tomorrow ahead.

11.11.11

November 11, 2011

I am a dead beat XD

I only just like her, but why it turn out like this.

Until I realized how unhappy I am

Hikari (Light)

Nabari No Ou 1st Ending Theme

Sung by: ELISA

Lyrics by: Nishida Emi

Music by: Sugimori Mai

Arrangement by: Maeguchi Wataru

(English Translation of the song)

The light that makes a journey to find love

Continues to chase after the future captured in my heart

If you open the hesitating door

You can walk into a new tomorrow

Painful memories

Sink deeply in the depths of my heart

The pain of loneliness

That no one else knows

Why do I always

Lose the most precious things?

The never-ending rain

Sings of sadness again

Ah, without anyone noticing

I wander aimlessly in this town

Hey, even though

The truth can't be seen

You should believe in the path within yourself, it's there

The light that makes a journey to find love

Continues to chase after the future captured in my heart

If you open the hesitating door

You can fly into a new tomorrow

A teardrop floats through the wind

The flowing clouds and the blue skies beyond my reaches

I look up, alone, and take a vow quietly

That I will live embracing the never-ending dream

The light that connects the faraway wish

It will surely bring hope and courage

Instead of counting the time that has passed

Let's make most of our time now

If your wish isn't granted and you are hurt

You just need to start over again from there, again and again

That's right, there isn't just one answer

You'll find happiness one day

To see people's happiness

I feel great even just helping other people build their own happiness, I feel honored even just making feel someone honorable, especially the one you like. I'm happy to know, I made a great thing, seeing people's smiles and laughter, expressing their own happiness.

Relaxing midnight

I miss my early college life, where I used to spend my time in socializing through internet, staying awake late midnight to play games and to chat with my online friends.  This is when the social networking site Friendster is on its peak.  Making Testomonials and Comments like a chat box, meeting total strangers and after some time became your best of friends, and guess what, who do you think will forget about this creating banner design like, "Thanks for the add."  

Honestly, this is the second best part of my life next to being a high school student, I used to socialize with people whom I don't know but, who cares, we share same interest and I'm comfortable even just chatting with them. I can clearly remember the relaxing feeling every midnight, browsing your profile in Friendster plus a relaxing anime music and plus a bunch of comments and testimonials pending to be replied.

I really like Friendster, a lot than Facebook, honestly.  Yes, it is actually true that Facebook is far greater than Friendster, but again, who cares, it's more comfortable for me to use Friendster because with that, I made some friends, from online friends to becoming real life friends.

If can just revisit the past, I will probably choose that time of my life as one of my destination, and if ever, I will visit it from time to time.  But time changes and we can't turn back the time, we just need to look forward for a new and brighter tomorrow.

Unexpected Encounter

We are heading to the comfort room in Level Up! Live 2011 held at World Trade Center when I saw these people in group cosplay, cosplaying the different characters from Ragnarok Online, I was staring each one of them, each characters, until my eyes turned to this specific character, a girl in cosplay of, I'm not sure what character it is because I'm not a player of Ragnarok Online, but I think it is a Rune Knight.  An ordinary girl but she really caught my attention specially when she smiled.  And up until I got home, I've been thinking of this girl, even though I just saw her in just a couple of minutes.  Well, I'm hoping to see her again, but as far as know I'm hoping for a very impossible thing, really impossible but this unexpected encounter made my day a great day.

A Light in the middle of Darkness

I can't get over to the story of Aya Kito, the owner of the very inspiring diary/book, 1 Liter of Tears.  Every time I remember some scene on the drama series, my heart suddenly breaks for no reason.  I think it's just the fate that Aya experienced during that time.  It is extremely hard for her age to carry such cruel fate, but still she manages it no matter how heavy these things for her.  Only people with such courage can do that, and for Aya, she is one of them, a very strong person, because during her dark times she still manages to stand as a shining light to her family and other people that surrounds her.

Be strong. Live on, forever.

Original Book Cover of 1 Liter of Tears

Aya Kito (July 19, 1962 - May 23, 1988)

Aya Ikeuchi (Erika Sawajiri), from the drama series.

Live on.

-Aya Kito/Ikeuchi

1 Liter of tears is a Japanese drama series based from a true life story of a 15 year old girl who got an incurable disease known as spinocerebellar degeneration, that slowly looses one's capability to walk or stand firmly, hold things and the ability to speak that will cause in future to be bedridden/disabled.  The process is slow but surely to continue progressing.  1 Liter of tears is actually the title of the diary of Aya Kito, where in this diary stated her battle with the disease, her sufferings both emotional and physical pain.

Aya is a smart, cheerful and energetic girl.  Unfortunately, one day during her most enjoyable time of her life (high school life) suddenly the symptoms of her disease appeared.  The disease started to progress, in result, it became a hindrance to her to live her normal life.  Because of the disease her studies were affected  and as the disease progresses, she was unable to walk and stand properly that lead her to transfer to a school for disabled.

Day by day, her condition gets worst, every day that passed she becomes weaker.  But this things didn't stop her to live, she did not lose any hope, well in fact she became a shining light to her family, to her doctor, friends and other people surrounds her.  She really is great and strong person, after discovering about her disease and behind all of the events that happened to her, she was able to continue to live her life with a smile on her face.  Even in the end, she haven't given up all the hopes and decided to donate her own body to the medical experts to find cure for the disease and as well to fulfill her dream to help others, because with this she will able to help people in the future with the disease similar to her, for these people will not lose hope and may continue to live on.


Her story made me realized a very important lesson in life,  "In any problems that we have, we must continue to live on without any regrets and with smile in our face, looking forward for a new and bright tomorrow."  And time is very important, we can never revisit the past or turn back the time, so we must live our life the the fullest, every day, every hour and every minute.

If I were a flower, then now I'd be a bud.  I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets.


Mother, deep inside my heart I have a mother who always believes in me.  From now onward as well, please continue to look after me.  I'm sorry to have troubled you so much.


Why did this disease choose me? I cannot carry it, if it's just for the word "fate"


I want to build a time machine and revisit the past.
If it weren't for this disease, I might even be in love.
I want to cling to someone's arms so badly.


I really don't want to say things such as "I want to go back to how things were before."
I recognize how I am right now and I will continue to live on.


Therefor I definitely won't run away.  That's what I'll do.  Definitely, always.


Even if it's like that, I still want to stay here.  Because this is the place where I am.


If you look you up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also today stretching limitless and smiles at me.  I'm alive.


People shouldn't dwell on the past.  It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now.


Reality is too cruel, too brutal.  I don't even have the right to dream.  As I think about the future, the tears will come out again.


Would I be able to get married?


I write because writing is the evidence that I am still alive.

5 Centimeters Per Second

They say it's 5 centimeters per second. . . The speed at which cherry blossom petals fall.

Every minute felt like an eternity time, clearly as if it had malicious intent, slowly ebbing away from me. I clenched my teeth, and keeping myself from crying was the only thing I could do.

The things I had to tell her, the things I hoped she would listen to. . . There were so many of them

Tohno-Kun has always. . . been looking at something far beyond, far higher than me.

I could never give Tohno-kun that which he desires.  Even so, I'm sure that even when tomorrow comes, or the day after, or thereafter, I will still be helplessly in love with him.

It must really be a lonelier journey than anyone could imagine. Cutting through absolute darkness, encountering nothing but the occasional hydrogen atom. Flying blindly into the abyss, believing therein lie the answers to the mysteries of the universe.

Yesterday, I had a dream. . . A dream I have had since long ago. In that dream, we had yet to turn 13. We were in a vast countryside, completely covered with snow. The lights of the houses extended far into the distance, a dazzling sight. We walked on the thick caprpet of fresh snow, but did not leave any footprints. And like that, "Someday we will be able to watch the cherry blossoms together again".

Saving one's self

I just resigned on my first job as an Assistant Arts and Display at Supervalue Inc., and the reason for leaving? Well, it's just the people, basically the whole working environment.  Feeling unwelcome there and somewhat felt someone wants to drag me down.  I am expecting personal growth, friends and extra training to have a better career advancement.  But where are they? Friends and extra training, without those how can I have a personal growth and career advancement.  Giving me tasks using a software where I have a total zero knowledge about it results failure and rejection, and the most worst of all, will result ghastly performance.  Training where are you? Training I need you!  That's why I decided to just resign.  Sounds like I quit but really not at all, I call it "saving my self" rather than quitting.  I really can't stay there, I want but I can't.  I really feel uneasy there and it is somehow killing me psychologically.  But I can say that the company is good and is a good place to start off a job or maybe career, I somehow felt a heart breaking when I left the company because of those HR staffs there, they are really kind, nice, friendly and approachable, especially the one who hired me, that HR staff is the one I used to talked with about my situation in my department and the one who gave me advice and recommendations.  And my unforgettable experience there, is when that HR staff said "Nathan, good luck ah!"  With those simple words being said, I left the building, wearing a smile on my face.

A friend

I am, right now listening to a sad song, well I really don't know if this is really a sad song, because I can't understand it, it's a Korean song by the way.  But it has somehow have a sad tune that makes me think it's a sad song.  And also, right now, I'm thinking of our dog, Sara, that has died several days ago, I'm reminiscing all the memories that I have spent with her during the first time she brought home 'til the last time I had a glimpse on her.  I love Sara very much, she is our first dog that stayed for us for so many years and with that such long period we have come to love her more and more.  I love the way how she plays on me whenever I sit on a chair beside or near to her, the way how she push me when I sit in front of her, the gesture when she is starting to get sleepy, the way she lick her body, the way she scratch her ears, the way when we call her and she just snob us, (she is just like a human) she, when freezing because of the cold weather, the way how she sleep, the way she lay down to an area where there is a sunlight to make her body warm.  I also remember the times when we try to open our screen door, but it won't open because she is sleeping and blocking it.  Her, being a playful dog when she is still young and becomes total opposite of it when she grew older.  She behaves well, she only barks to a total stranger to us, she won't bark to our friends and neighbors.  She is just lovely and cute the way she is even she is sometimes annoying, I missed her, all of her.  I know, she also had a great time with us even though she is being scolded sometimes.  I regret that I am not able to play with her and see her for the last time before she died, but she will definitely be loved and remembered always, and I know she is with God right now and God is now taking care of her.  Bye and Thank you, Sara :)

49 days

Today is the day I've finished my 49 days, I mean, this is the day that I've finished watching the Korean drama series "49 days."  I've enjoy watching this, honestly, I extremely enjoyed and loved this series.  It has a unique plot, tear jerking scenes, and unexpected twists.  I've never watched this kind of series before, this is almost a perfect drama for me and if I would have to rate this, I will rate this as 11/10.

49 days was aired in Philippine channel (ABS-CBN) as a prime time TV show and that's the reason why I've discover this series.  When I saw the commercial of the series, I already have an idea that it a good series to watch, but it didn't make a big impact for me, I wasn't really excited to watch it and has no plan of watching and finishing it though.  But one day, while waiting for my scheduled interview for a job application, I've met a friend and we've talk for while, while waiting for the interview, and it suddenly went to sharing this series to me.  She told positive and nice comments about the series, and she even told that she has a sleepless nights just to be able to finish the series.  And because of that conversation we had and to my curiosity as well, I've tried to watched one of its episode on TV, I've like it and I began to watch it online, and later on, loved it.  I have a lot of tear jerking moments while watching this series and believe me, this is not an ordinary drama.  If I would give comment for the series, I would only give a word for it, "it's a masterpiece."

PS: Stop reading this blog entry, close this tab and go, start watching it!! :D

Prior to my previous blog entry, this is the result for having the English version of the song, "Someday."  I have drawn this because of the happiness I felt for having that song.

Shallow!

Yeah! I feel the opposite emotion I felt last night,  I feel extremely alive and hype right now!  And it's because I found an English version of "Someday, "one of the OST's of my favorite movie, "A crazy little thing called love."  I'm hooked with that song ever since I've watched and heard that song from the movie.  The original version is in Thai language, so I don't understand it, (but I at least understand it because I googled the english translation of the song and you can see it from the English subtitle of the movie) like any other Japanese song that I used to listen with, but still, I love listening with them.  But now today I have found it, an English cover for that song, I already downloaded it from youtube, it is originally a video, but I just converted and ripped the video to make it an mp3, my thanks to the one who upload and made the cover of it.  And now, I can sing along while playing that song in the guitar without having difficulties pronouncing the lyrics of it.  Well, it sounds that I'm an easy to pleased person, but I don't care, that simple thing triggers my happiness and I can't do anything about it, I'll just have to enjoy it and I know God wants this for me.

A pointless emotion

Oh crap, I feel extremely sentimental right now and I don't know what is the reason for this feeling.  I can't think of any things that triggers me to feel this emotion, or maybe, I think, the band I left is the reason.  After I left the band, I've waited for words to come out to them, if they will just let me leave or will convince me not to leave, but I found it useless.  Honestly I've waited for several days, checking out facebook notifications, but I have received none, no words from them convincing me to comeback, no words like no one has left.  I left the band for, yes I know, a very selfish decision,  from what I stated in this blog several days from now, but I thought of this several times, I cannot really stand being left behind by my them and end up leaving them.  Well, you know, that band is the first successful band that I've ever joined and I honestly, I loved it.  But unlike any other things, everything has its beginning and end and every end has its new beginning.  And yes, also, that gives me a relief now, it's clear in my mind that, now, I am officially not a member of that band anymore and even not a loss for them, no hard feelings.

Little Braver (Guitar Cover)

So this is the result of "got nothing to do night." I have made another cover, my guitar cover of Little Braver by Girls Dead Monster (Angel Beats!)

My apologies for the quality of video, I converted it into a smaller size because the original video is around 400mb +, it will take a longer time (maybe forever) just to upload it if I will not convert it =.=

Like whatever

I guess my old band really don't need me at all, besides, it looks like I'm not a loss to them at all, never been being persuaded by them.  Well, I'm just gonna rock the whole night and say hello to my future band!

A noisy night,  has nothing to do, so I decided just to play and rock my guitar :D

Sayounara Lunch Box

Well, today is the day I left my band, "Lunch Box."  We are three guitars in the band and for me a reasonable number of guitarists in a normal band is one or two, one on lead and the other one for the rhythm guitar, I just think that if there are three guitarists, the other two guitarist will just be doing the same thing.  Well, it is one of my reasons for leaving the band, but my main reason for leaving the band is, well I didn't say this reason to them because they might just laugh out of it or think that I'm crazy and I am too shy to tell it to them.  For my reason, during these past few months, I don't feel like being part of the band all, well, literally yes I'm a part, but for whenever I'm with them, when I observe them, they are too close and having a great bonding with each other while leaving me behind.  I just feel like being out of place and being left out.  Yes the sound of the voice and the sound of our instruments is perfectly blending during rehearsals, but when it comes to person to person, me with them, I don't think I am able to blend with them.  I love the band, but I just don't feel being part of that band anymore, I still want to jam with them especially that for our next practice, one of the songs we're going to play is Melt by Supercell, that recently become one of my favorite songs, but  anyway I have a great time spending with them during those early days.  I think I'll come back if they will persuade me, just to know if I am really important to the band, (nah, I'm so very demanding  =.=) or I'll just be waiting for another band to join.

My drawing of Nam (A crazy little thing called love)

Just finished watching "A crazy little thing called love," again.  Wew, I really can't get enough with this movie since I've first watched it last sunday and now watched it all over again.  I really love how the protagonists of the movie I mean, how the love story of the two protagonists began, started from highschool, hide their feeling to each other, being heart broken and until the day that their path has crossed again.  I really wish that I have that same love story, as to like me that has a, uhm...not so good love sto...you know what I mean (^^).   Well, I think this has already become my favorite movie of all the love story movie I watched before, from Anime to real life.  I really love the movie, that's all and I think I'm gonna watch it all over again :D

Nam is kawaii :">

These are some of snapshots taken from my favorite scene in the movie, where Nam already proposed to Shone and bla bla...just watch the movie :D

When I woke up in the morning yesterday, well actually being woke up by the sound of the television in our room, I saw my sister watching something from the television, when I turn my stare at the TV, I saw the girl in one of the commercial of ABS-CBN and knew that it's the commercial of "A crazy little thing called love" that will be aired on ABS-CBN on that day.  Well, nothing special, I just joined my sister from watching it and later on, the scenes are becoming more interesting, before I noticed it, I'm already beginning to like the movie.  This is the first time that I liked a movie from Thailand, well I just enjoyed and love watching it and I think, I'm gonna buy my own copy of it, because they say that some scene on the TV is not being shown and the dubbed is. . . something that I can't  give comment on, well moving on, I just loved the movie, especially the two protagonist, Nam and Shone.  I just wished that I have a love story like that :">

My Electric Guitars

My first electric guitar on left and the new one on the right.

I remember way back then, sometime in May 2007 when I attended the orientation of new students in Asia Pacific College, I said and promised to myself that, "I'm going to graduate on this school," while wearing a smile in my face.

Right now, those words I said before, that promised I made before has now converted into reality.  Like a man seeking a way to a certain place, now in the end of the road and ready to enter the place he was looking for.  I already graduated from college, the days where I used to be student has just ended and now ready to face a new life.  The beginning of the real challenges in life.

Month from now, I will be entering the concrete jungle where I need to battle against other people to survive, using skills to be hired first in the top and fast growing organization before others.  Battling with companies to companies, business to business, making strategies and decision that will decide your fate.  This is the new life that I will be facing, and it's just the beginning,  I maybe still not ready for this, but I will surely and rest assured to myself that I am going to be ready.  I believed that confidence and competency are the factors that must be equipped of to become ready and to survive this fight.

But even though being a student days has passed, learning will always be there.  Even though I am not going to school anymore to study, I will able to learn by means of experience, just like in the mmorpg's, the more experience you will gain, the stronger you will be.  With or without our consent, everyday we will learn new things that we can used and apply to our very own life that would make our life worth it and meaningful.

I miss this, I just miss doing this late at night, relaxing music and solemn yet calm night.  I remember the days when I used to be in front of the PC, just in front of PC doing nothing, but just listening to relaxing music.  With a calm mind and has nothing to think of, without worrying about tomorrow's assignment or quizzes, next week's project, next day's presentation and etc.; thinking of just scenarios that happened, sad memories that was being buried in past and happy memories that used to cherish all the time.  Thinking of what will happen tomorrow and in the future, about goal and dreams. Talking with God, thanking for all the blessings that I received, asking forgiveness for all the sins I've done and asking for guidance and protection for me and my family all the time.  I just miss doing this, and right now, again, just like the old times, here in front of PC, media player on, using my spare time putting my thoughts into words.  I just love doing this.

A girl I've seen last tuesday at the jeep that catches my attention.

My First Guitar Cover [Scandal Baby by Scandal]

This is my first guitar cover, the song is entitled Scandal Baby sung by Scandal.  Please bear with my mistakes because, yes! I'm nervous while doing this cover :D

Lunch Box's First Live Performance

This is the First Live Performance of my band, Lunchbox at Ozine Fest '11 held last April 8, 9 and 10 at SM Megamall Megatrade hall 2 and 3.  Our first song is the TV size version of Pride by Scandal in the Anime Star Driver and the second one is entitled Kiss! Kiss! Kiss! by Bouno!, one of the ending songs in the Anime Shugo Chara.  And by the way, I'm the one wearing the red chikara hat :D

"I like being by myself, I just feel uncomfortable being with other people" - Erza Scarlet, Fairy Tail.

The statement about describes what kind of person I am.  I hate to admit it, but it's the truth, that I am sometimes, somehow like this. I like being by myself and don't want to hang out with other people; being myself doesn't mean all the time, there are times that I just want to be alone, it's not being emo, but it's just the kind of life I used to live with.  But it's not a sad life that you may think, for me it's just the way of calming my mind, reflecting, and talking with God.  It just looked like I'm sad, but Whenever I do this, I always thought of happy things.  Well you see, I am a jolly person as well, but I used to share both of these personalities.  It's weird, but the truth is, it's only in my appearance that I looked sad, but deep inside, I'm not :D

This is the first time that there was a person who made such an effort just to thank me for the simple things that I've done.  The photo above is the letters given to me by a different person but in fact was from only one person, I mean that person asked these different person to give me those letter to surprise me, and yes! I was really surprised with that and really appreciated that effort.  And by the way, in those letters, you can see inside it "Thank You" in different languages, isn't nice? ^_^

My Bandmates [Lunch box + Scandal Sentimental]

The above picture, as stated are my band mates.  Actually I have two bands, where my original band was named Lunch box and the other one is Scandal Sentimental.  Scandal Sentimental was actually a group of 4 cosplayers who cosplay Scandal, it just happened that we, Lunch box were asked to perform with them for the celebration of their debut, and because of that Lunch box met Scandal Sentimental.  As you can see in the picture, the 3 other boys there are my band mates in Lunch box, while the 4 girls are the member of Scandal Sentimental.  We just met them personally last saturday on an Anime convention that was held in Robinson's Manila.  We're planning to have an intermission number for the debut of Scandal Sentimental on April's Anime convention, Ozine fest '11 and also planning to compete on a battle of the bands contest that was also part of Ozine fest's event.  I just hope that schedules will not ruin our plan, Gambatte to all of us guys! ^_^

An early dismissal was given to us by our professor last thursday in our Buslaw1 class.  It was around 2:00pm and it's too early to go home, so I asked my classmates if we can just stay up to 3:00pm.  We decided to wait until 3:00pm at our school cafeteria.  We talk about different things, when one of my classmate (boy) saw a gorgeous girl, he asked my other classmate (girl) if she can ask for the girl's number, my classmate answered him back and said, "seryoso ka ba? kasi hihingiin ko talaga number nya" and then I interrupted their conversation and said, "sige hingiin mo na."  After realizing that the girl that my classmate have seen was really gorgeous.  And then after a couple of minutes, my classmate stood up and we asked her, "o san ka pupunta?" She answered, "hihingin ko yung number nya, sabi nyo diba?"  Then I went to the comfort room, and when I went back, I asked her if she already got that girl's number and surprisingly she really had it, my other classmate didn't want to get it so I decided to get so the effort of my classmate won't go for nothing.

While I'm doing some guitar maintenance at home, I remembered the girl that my classmate saw and remembered that I have her number, fortunately she is a globe user as well, with some courage (because of the fact that that was my first time doing that) I decided to text her, I felt a little nervous for no reason, I think it's because that was the first time I've done it.  And then after a minute, I am surprised that she replied back to me.  Obviously, her reply was "Who's this?". I introduced my self and then talk about different things.  She was very nice and kind, she talk nicely to me even though she don't know me and even I think I'm already annoying her because of my nonsense questions.  Hmm, that's all, I just want to share this :)

Finally, I've been looking for this cute Yui Hirasawa Cosplay ^^

Happy New Year!! Hello 2011 :)