As I walked that night

It was late Sunday night when I was walking home from Muntinlupa, just came from a band practice, and accompanied my girlfriend at their place. It was fun walking, that I decided to walk than to ride a tricycle, I really do loved doing this.

As I walk during that night, I feel so relaxed, as the music in my earphones plays, my mind was also playing, playing moments of my self with my girlfriend together, during the times when we used to hang out, going to place we don't usually gone, watching movies, deciding where to eat, crazy moments, corny moments, banatan moments, sweet moments and unplanned moments together.

I was like in a music video, walking in the corner of the street with the dim street light opened, watching cars and people that passes by, my hair was waving as the wind blows, I looked at the sky, the moon was so bright and it's a perfect time to reminisce the moments we had together. I missed her, so much, even though we just hanged out a couple of hours ago. I guess, this is what it's like to be, to fell in love so deeply, in one person, whom you want to keep forever, for the rest of your life.

Never thought that I would be like this

It's been five months, since the time I've enter into a relationship, something that I never foreseen I would be in before. 

Sometimes, the things that we don't expect to happen, happens, sometimes, a kind of person that we don't expect we are going to be, are the ones we are becoming and be keeping for the rest of our life. I've never expected that love would conquer me, as I know to my self that I'm not really like this, I was actually an introvert, loner, snob and self centered person. But things have changed, and I started to care, not for someone whose family or friend related, but to a stranger, once a stranger and nothing to care about, but now became a huge part of my life, the one who would complete me and my dreams in the future.

Feeling depressed when she's not around, missing her badly when not seeing her for a couple of days, day dreaming of her during spare time and thinking of her, the moment I woke up until I sleep at night. Taking care of her would be the best job I've been, even though no salary is being paid to me, as long she'll appreciate it and pay me back with love. It really feels good to have someone you care for, someone you would care for the entire of your life, someone you've dedicated your life for.

We may have some twists in our relationship, but that would never ever change my feelings or would make me tired of loving and taking care of her. As I've said to my self and to God that I would do anything for her, just to make her okay and happy.

Thinking of future is not really my trait at all, I mean thinking of my self, playing and running with my children while my wife is watching and smiling back at us. This is the first time that this happened to me, and I'll make sure that this would not remain as a thought only, someday, this thought of mine would come to reality and the things that I've been always dreaming now will eventually experience by me and her in the future.

Patience is a virtue. . .

Good things comes to those whose willing to wait. . .

Waiting would be easier, because I know, we're going to work on these together, and in the end, the wait will be worth it. . .

Where it all started

Every day, every night, every time

Every day, every night, every time, I always ask God to protect you, to get you away from all evil and harm. I always asked God to give you strength so you can carry and hold on, on the situation you're experiencing right now, that someday it will fade and everything will become okay. I know God has plans for everyone, for me, my family and for you, we just need to patiently wait and have faith in him. I say to God that I would help him in giving you strength, because this is the least I could do for now. Together, we'll patiently wait for that day to come that you can already get out the to that situation, together, we'll believe in him for that time to come. 

You're a very important person to me, that I want you to be okay every time.

Someday

To tell the truth, right now, all I'm wishing and the biggest goal in my life is to get you out the life you're experiencing right now. Someday, I will be able to get you out on the situation you're currently on, where you can no longer experience heavy arguments, extreme breaking down, and feeling giving up on everything. I will make sure that someday, we'll live together peacefully, where we can enjoy our time, together with our future family. Someday, we'll be living in a place that are free from negative things you're experiencing right now. I will make sure that, I'll be strong for you, for us, to be your strength during the downs of your life. Someday, I would go back to this page again and probably reading this blog post again and will whisper in my self, " At last, I did it."

Never I will. . .

I am just concern about you, everything that can harm you or would be bad for you. I'm doing all my best just to cheer you up, to make you happy, to lift you up when you're breaking down. I would do everything just to make you fine, anything just to make you okay, I'll sacrifice my other personal things, scheduled meetings or hang out just to be with your side. Even I'm not or I cant' make on your side, I make sure that I'm going to make a way to get in touch with you, to make you feel that I'm just here when you needed me, to hug you on a long cold nights, to kiss you when you're breaking down, to hold yo when you feel weak. I'm just right here, doing everything the best I can, just to make you okay. I just want to know and wish that all the things I'm doing is enough, just want to know that my efforts are working, making you feel fine and okay. I'll take care of you, won't abandoned you or give on you, never I will.

To have that someone. . .

It's good to know that you have that someone whom will be there for you, not only during the ups of your life but also the downs. When you're sad there she is trying to cheer you up and when you're stressed and just want to surrender, there she is cheering and lifting you up. It's good to know that there is this someone whom will be there for you no matter what happened and anything will do just to make you okay.

Once a stranger

We were just strangers before, we were once have our own life and path that are taking, until we came to the point that our path crossed with each other. These paths joined together and now we are taking it hand to hand, moving forward to the time we called future.

If I just can. . .

Every time she breaks down, being in a bad mood, having a bad day, or anything that makes her emotion down, I can't help but to worry and end up being sad. It tears a part of my heart every time she feels down.

I'm trying all the best I can do just to cheer her up, but sometimes I'm ending up thinking I'm a no help at all. If could only put her out of the situations that causes of her breaking down, If I could just be always right by her side if she needed me. If I can do more to make her cheer up. If I just have the power to make her okay in an instant when she is breaking down. If I just can. . .