Once a reality, now a memories

I can't help thinking of you, I can't help this gloomy feeling for missing you, I really miss you so badly. I wish I could spend time with you even just for a day. I just want to stare at you and see the relaxing expression of your face and the smile you wear when we are together. 

I miss your gesture, your laughter and the way how you tell me stories. I miss it when I used to tease you and ended up saying "joke lang" then after that, will hug you. I miss those moments when you are pinching my cheek and used to steal a kiss in my cheek. I miss the the moments when I'm hugging you and eventually will kiss your forehead. I miss holding your soft warm hands. I miss it when you used to say, "I love you." I miss the moment when I first kissed you in your lips. I miss the time when we are together.

Those days, those nostalgic days, once a reality now became a memories. Memories that I used to keep, memories I'm holding and used to think of when we're not together. It feels so right, but still so sad, I know we can't be together for now, but no matter what happened, we will find a time to make those memories became reality once again.

Staring on a blank wall but I only see you,
With this lonely time, all I want is to be with you

Missing you is all in my mind
Finding that our hearts are intertwined

I know I can't be with you tonight
But I'll wait for the time that I can hold you tight

Hug me, please stay on my side
It's our feeling that we can't hide

I'll kiss you baby, please don't cry
Don't worry because I won't say good bye

Look into my eyes and say you love me
Come closer to me, and stay with me baby


Random thought is coming out of my mind and being converted into this words, because I'm missing someone.


Hey you!! Yes you, Patricia Adrienne! I know you'll able read this soon, I made this for you, I hope you'll like it. Take care always, God bless! I love you :)

My chucks and her heels

Irrelevant Anger

Am I a fool, weak minded person, an idiot or whatever? Why do I keep on browsing and staring on their photos together, even though I know staring with those photos will just end me up being angry, hurt or feel some kind of strong feeling that I wanna go in rage. 

I know this is a selfish thinking, but how I wish that she never met that boy before, her experience with him is very hurtful. Saying that he loves her but ended up hurting her and abandoning her when they are in times of difficulties and problems, seeing her crying but somewhat can still have fun. That's not an act of a real man nor even an act of a real person.

Am I angry with him? Somehow yes! I know there's no point being angry with that person, but I don't know, he is getting into my nerves. I think it's because she is the ex-boyfriend of my girlfriend, and the fact that I really don't like what he have done to her on their previous relationship.

NAAAH, I want to do a table flip!

Unexpected

May 18, 2012, that night, an unexpected thing happened, it was the time when it's almost dismissal time, no expected schedule with anybody, but suddenly I received a text message, someone is asking if I could hang out with her, and I immediately replied it yes. Well, without having any second thought, I agreed to meet up and hang out with her the fact that I love being with her. It was hanging out time, at first we we're just teasing each other, sharing some stories and etc., until a topic was opened and made the ambience very gloomy, some tears fell, smile turned into frown, there's a moment of silence.

We don't know what we are into, I love her, she loves me but we are not into any relationship, we are just friend. Friends that are hugging, holding hands with each other, we are confused. But that serious topic suddenly suddenly fade when some jokes and laughter began to come out, but with that jokes, as far as I remember, I said a word "Tayo na!" which I mean basically, "Ikaw na, Ako na," made some thing about what we have changed, the moment I said that word "tayo na," she began to ask me, "tayo na?" Again there's a moment of silence, the moment was so awkward, my heart is beating so fast, I can't even say a single word, a few minutes have passed, she asked me again and I asked her back, we do the asking for about four times, then we asked it again as for the last time, I asked first, "tayo na ba, okay lang ba sayo?" she answered yes and asked me, "tayo na ba, okay lang din ba sayo?" and I answered yes.

Unexpectedly, she became my girlfriend and I become her boyfriend and that moment, we hug each other, now I can really say she's mine and I am hers. We leave the mall while we're holding hands with each other with of course a smile on our face.

It's funny isn't it? On how we became boyfriend and girlfriend? It was unexpected but yet, we are happy.

The sad truth

We are under in the same feeling, we are both in love. We are just like the others who are into relationship, we  are going out and dating, we held hands, we hugged each others, we used stare with each others and ended up smiling, I feel her love, she feel mine too, she say I love you and it gives me a happy feeling, but I just realized that it hurts knowing that you're not mine nor I'm yours after all.

I don't care if we are not in any relationship, but I'm just afraid that time might come that someone will take you away from me. The fact that I don't have the rights to say that you are only mine.

Best Buddies and Nature

It was a different experience especially when you are with your "tropa." We had a lot of fun during our outing last Saturday, even though there are some things that did not went according to our plan, still we are able to push through our vacation. Even just we are on the way to Bataan, even just on the car, it was a lot of fun and our day was already made especially when we are doing the "tablahan" and "banatan" things.

We arrived at the resort at around 12:00 noon, we get a room first, had our lunch and have some rest and after, it's beach time. It was a long time ago when I got the swim on a beach. The water was clear and of course, it's salty and even hurt my nose and ears when I try dive my head on the water. We spend the whole afternoon in the water, we swim, float, play with water, play with sand and etc.

During the night, we took some rest but we got bored and started to walk around the beach, then we came to this idea to play "patintero." And then began to play patintero, well of course in the sand, it's hard to move and it's very tiring but we had a lot of fun. After we played, we took our good night sleep and rested.

Then the last day has come, and during morning, we just sleep and took some rest, we have a scheduled activity though but we did not pursue it because the fact that we are very tired. Before we take our step outside the beach and finally say good bye, we do some picture taking, walking around the resort and do some bonding.

And then we finally say good bye, but this is not yet the end and we still have one more activity to do and it is our journey to Mt. Samat, this is not in the plan it was just a popped up idea while we are on the resort. We arrived at Mt. Samat at around 2:00pm, it was very hot out there but we didn't notice it because the scenery is so relaxing and we almost had seen the low lands covered with fogs. We climbed at the summit of the mountain, well we did not literally climbed like what the mountain climbers do but there is a man made stairs there way up to the peak where the Shine of valor memorial cross is located. When we arrived at the summit, we saw the tall and big cross, we felt the clean air flowing in our skin, it is very windy there and it's relaxing. There is a elevator there so people can go up in the peak of the cross, we went there, the air is different, it is very cool and cleaner you can feel the natural air of the nature, and it was relaxing. After that we head back down the feet of the mountain and went to see the museum and then after a couple of minutes staying at the museum, not it's finally time to head back where we belong, I mean, it's our last journey to go back home.

Though the outing is about to end, we still cherish our bonding together even we are on the car, every moment on our way back home is unforgettable, we made our time worthwhile.

With just one song and it made my day

Secret - Twinkle Twinkle

Thousand steps

It's been 5 years since the day that I remembered that All I just do in my everyday life is to watch Anime and Anime all over again. I remembered that it was a summer break after I graduated in high school, every day I am tuned in on either Animax or Hero TV, both are anime streaming channels and I just feel completely happy whenever I'm doing this. I miss doing it, I miss my somewhat childhood (the fact that I'm already around 15-16 years old that time) even though I know I'm still young, young but not child anymore. It is really true and obvious that we only got one shot of being a child so we must do everything that make it worth it, because the enjoyment that you felt during your childhood will never be the enjoyment that you will feel when you grow as an adult in the future. And this present time, things just get different, I believed that I already grow and learned a lot, though I still carry some of my traits during my childhood, like watching Anime, playing video games sounding like a child and looking not being serious most of the time. Yes it is different now, but I'm not saying it's not happy at all, let's just say that some thing just got serious, like now, I'm having a work and planning to walk the path of my chosen career and start building my dreams in life; start building and making it come true. I am still on the first step of building my dreams and I know I still need thousand steps to reach it but no matter how many steps should I take, as long as I know that I am in the right path, then I will get there someday, no matter what.