The rest of my life started when I fell in love with you

I never knew that I would be needing something I don't need before, or someone I didn't even think of that would very important and special to me now and in the near future.

I'm just living my simple life before, work, play games, hang out with friends, eat, spend money for useless things and dream childish things. Dreaming of living alone with my dream house, with a gaming/multimedia room and music room. Planned to have business and play games at my dream house. But that was before, until something and someone unexpected came. Something I didn't now I would feel and someone I didn't knew I would take care of.

I just played a game, I just replied a text, I just spent sometime answering a phone call and then after a couple of time, I fall, I fell in love with someone once a stranger to me but now became one of the most important people to me, the one I want to spent the rest of my life with.

From what I remember before, this is not really me, I mean, to really fell in love, I was just like a snob, stone hearted, numb and a loner person before. Yes, I used to fell in love before, but this time it's different, I could feel my heart beating fast before whenever I am with the girl I love, but this time, even though I'm not with her, even just by thinking her, I could feel the love is conquering my whole self and body and ending up smiling.

I really love spending time with her and whenever I'm with her, I could feel so much happiness, I even think that I am the very happy person in the world whenever I'm with her. I wouldn't care where we go, where we hang out, even it's far, as long as I'm with her. There are things that I dream to do with her like, traveling with her, have vacation with her, sleep with her and many more, but of course, to be with her in a place we could say, "Our home." 

From dreaming of living alone before, now dreaming of living with her. Play with her in the game room, play music with her in the music room, spend time with her in our home.

I'm really happy and contended with her, I couldn't ask for more, she may not be my first, she may be my third girlfriend, but I'll make sure she will be my last.

It's you that arrived, It's love that I found and I want you to be my last.. The rest of my life started when I fell in love with you.

Adventure Time!

It's Saturday morning and on this day, we decided that we are going to hang out, but the question is where?

Don't know where to go, we spent some time sitting on a bench in Santana grove and thinking of a place where to hang out, SM southmall, SM Bicutan, Festival Mall, Market Market, Alabang town center? But ended up of going to Festival Mall instead. While hanging out in Festival mall, walking, chatting, do some games playing, her mom called on her phone, and told her that she needs to go to her grand mother's place in Paco Manila, and I decided to accompany her there, and then unexpectedly unplanned, an adventure has begun.

So we took a bus from Alabang to Quirino Hi-way, and from Quirino Hi-way, we took some walk, looking for an ATM do withdraw some cash and after that, she went to her grand mother's place. After that, since we planned earlier to watch a movie, we decided to just watch on Robinson's Manila instead of going back to Festival Mall. We watched Step Up Revolution, I'm not a fan of dancing, but I enjoyed the movie, they are somewhat making some trouble by means of dancing, and it's kinda cool, like what in the movie said, "Sometimes, it's good to break the rule" I don't remember exactly the exact sentence but that's at least the idea.

Then after the movie, we took some walk, chit chatting and etc., then we decided to go back to festival mall so if she already needs to go home, it will be just near to their place. We spent sometimes in Festival mall, had our dinner and grab an opportunity to have our moment with each other before we went home.

Honestly, this is the first time I've done this, having an adventure/city hopping with someone very special to me, well I think I've done this before, but I can't remember, but I know this time, I really enjoyed it and I had a lot of fun spending time with her. If only I could stop the time that day.

I'm not an outgoing person, I usually stay at home most of the time, it's not that I don't like, but I think it's a complete waste of time, but that was me before. Now, already gotten out of my comfort zone and I don't mind whether where will I go as long as I am with her.

Ash and Pikachu

A status that made my day :)

A day full of adventure and sweetness

It's a day full of adventure and sweetness. It was not on the plan, we just want to hang out right after our work and then after, go home and rest. But it doesn't look like it turned out like that because we still don't want to let go of each other yet. 

I was on the meeting and thought that it will be finished by around right after lunch by 12:00 noon or by 1:00 pm, but it was extended up to 2:30 pm, well as for a company meeting, it's normal. But the matter is, there is someone waiting for me, I need to get where my girlfriend was, because she's waiting me there from 11:00pm on wards, a couple of hours of waiting. I feel guilty about it, I say sorry but she said that, it's okay and everything is fine, that she is not mad or something.

So the hang out began. Of course, sharing stories with each other, walk together while talking, teasing each other and when being teased will end up hugging. It was on SM Sucat, but she want to go somewhere else, so we decided to go to Festival Mall instead. Of course, when we get there we still do what we've done on SM, but first we had our merienda-dinner meal. Again, talk, walk, tease and laugh, making every minutes and seconds worth because time is limited and parting time is nearly there.

It's already time to say good bye speeches but an idea was put up. I said that I'm going with her, I'm going to accompany her home, but she didn't let me because she said that it was hassle for me and it's far from my place and so on and so on. But I ask something, if her best friend's place was really near from their home and said let's go and visit her. Excitement was build and without second thought, she said yes and then we went there.

When we got there, her best friend was not yet home. We waited for an hour but still not yet home. We just decided to go where she was, we'll just visit her there. But again, when got there, a guy told that she already left there about a couple of hours ago. We call her best friend and she said that she already got home and decided to just go back at their place. But before we went there, an unexpected thing happened, we are talking about something but I'm facing in the opposite direction but when I'm about to face her, her face was coming close to me, her lips coming close to my lips, and then we kissed, but not for a short time that we usually do.

It looks like nothing happened after, but deep inside me, I was so, well it was an unexplainable feeling but it feels good, honestly. And going back, we went back to her best friend's place and at last she was there. We stayed there for about 30 minutes, do some talking and other things. And after that, it's really need to say good bye.

The day was really worth it, no hours, minutes or even seconds was wasted, my time is really worth it whenever I'm with her. I love being with her, If we can just be together every time but we know that there is always limitation but still we're really happy that even though our schedule was conflict with each other, we are able to give time being together.

Making my heart smile, every time

There are some things that I can't say directly, I'm too shy to say or it's bit too early to say. In my mind, sometimes, I'm having thoughts of spending my life with her, I can't really deny the fact that I used to imagine my self sitting beside her smiling and laughing together on a place called home. I just can't help thinking about these things, being with her today, tomorrow and in the future.

I always hold on to these thoughts, that if we can't be together in present, then there is still future. I understand that we can't be together every time and I'm fine with it. Every time we are spending time together, it's all worth it, not even a single second when we are together are being put into waste, I just love being with her.

She is a very special and important person to me, a friend, a best friend, my lover. I want to be her strength to her weaknesses, the one who will cheer her up when she's down, the one will erase the sadness in her face. Without doing anything, with just thinking about you you are making smile, you made my heart smile, every time.

I should be sleeping but...

I should be sleeping right now, but I just can't sleep. Why? Well the main reason is I'm thinking of a certain person and the times being with her, to cut the story short, I'm reminiscing. I already feel sleepy but I just miss my girlfriend that put me into reminiscing the time I am with her that hinders me from sleeping and the result is here I am, in front on PC doing this blog.

Hey my beloved girlfriend, if you happen to read this post, please don't blame your self for the reason of I can't sleep because of you, I love this feeling and it's okay if this hinders me from sleeping, anyway, I love you so much :)

Am I just overreacting?

Upper back pain together with chest pain plus difficulty in breathing, I really couldn't manage to walk any next steps again but I need to. I was so scared, I really thought of dying, I don't know what to do. When I arrived home, I just greet my parents and went to my room directly, Mom followed me in my room, asking me if I'm okay and what happened. "Mom, my back hurts, it's really hard to breathe, it's hard to stand, please can you give me a bottle of water." From that time, I really don't want to sleep because I think, I'm breathing because in my mind, I'm saying to breath, so if my mind went to sleep, I might couldn't breathe anymore. I don't know if I'm just over reacting or whatever, but I was really scared because, my mind is set to "I'm dying."

I can't explain what I really feel that time, but I was really scared, I don't want to die yet, I don't want to leave my parents, friends and especially my girlfriend. I think this was cause by anxiety and stress and most probably will be back in my rhythm after a couple of days and weeks

As soon as I'm already capable

The more I think that I don't want to stay on this organization anymore is the more I'm being hype on starting my own income generator or shall I say business. I swear that I won't be an employee forever or a manager or team leader who is under a person called boss. I want to be a boss of my own business. It's not that I don't want to work on a certain organization at all, but for a person like me who value life, balance for both work and life is very important to me. Well actually, life is more important to me than work, but how will I live if I will not work, ironic isn't it? But it's a fact. That's why I want to own and start my own business as soon as I can. By having this, I can control my time and have more time on my personal life while less thinking of how will I live or support my needs. Having a business is yes, stressful at first, but later on if it succeeds, you will succeed as well. It's convenient, because while you're having a business you can still find some part time jobs for extra income and that would make you enough bucks to buy not only your needs but also your wants. During college, my course thought me and inspires me to do this thing, with the knowledge I learn from college, I'll need to apply it on this. I'm not planning to have a big business, I don't want to complicate my life on creating big organization, it will give me more money but it will also give me stress, problems, enemy, and will leave me "having no life person," and I don't want that to happen, I just want a right size business that will give me enough funds to support my living in the future.