Same things are happening, nothing is happening

I can't really stay here for so long, I am dying mentally and psychologically here. With just same things happening every work days, nothing will really happen to me. I only do, nothing but nothing. Yes indeed, I;m doing nothing every weekdays, as if, it's like wasting all the time I spent in college in this rectangular

Wrong move

One of my greatest regret in my life is, having you as my girlfriend before.  I guess my emotion just carried me out on those days and the feeling is just not strong enough, it's just my imaginary feeling of loneliness that triggers it all. 

And I realized just now that, sorry for the harsh word, but your're not really worth of my time and effort and I guess my love as well. Just want to say this, and I don't want to bother and waste more time typing all the things about you, saying this as my main point is enough already.

Even as a Gamer

For that person who thinks that me, as a gamer, there's nothing more important thing than playing video games, you're absolutely wrong, I am saying to you, I know when to stop playing games and I know when is the right and wrong time to play the video games.  I stop playing when an important friend chatted or messaged me, especially those want to share problems or even some stuffs.  I know how to bond with my friends, if I am in the middle of extreme gaming and a friend calls for a hang out, I always go for it and I stop playing, besides, I can still continue after that.  I also stop playing video games when there is a family gathering, even simple and small ones.  Gatherings like, hanging out in the sala, singing or just chit-chatting.  So, for you who thinks that there is nothing more important to me than games, I proved you wrong, I guess it's just because of your experience with me is the reason why you have said that.  Remember that I only stop playing and pay attention if that person/people or thing is worth spending my time.

When time is not enough

What I currently need now is well, not more time but better time management to balance all the things I wanted to do because my work is eating almost 60% of my time every day.  My work starts at 8:30AM and ends up 5:30PM and I get home around 7:00pm to 7:30pm depending on the traffic, well traffic is one of the things I most hated, traffic is eating almost two hours of my time everyday and it sucks, and with that two hours I already can do a lot of things but it's just being wasted sitting in the corner of the jeepneys doing nothing but wait.

When I'm already at home, my only time remaining is three to four hours, starts at 8:00PM and ends up 11:00PM or 12:00AM.  With that period of time, the things I usually do is checking my facebook account and other social network account and playing video games and also I'm part of a band so I need to practice our lined up songs for at least 1 hour.

As you can see, I only have three or four hours of my time everyday and I hate it.  With like me, a person that want to do many things, this time period is really not enough. Life would be boring If all I will do is to work, go home and rest then work again and so on.

When it's boring

I honestly don't want to stay here anymore, well I'm talking to my current employer.  No task is given to me, but the boss said that I can do whatever I want, of course it must be in line with my job description and must got to do in making the products and the company better.  But then, I came to the point that I already given and suggested all the things in my mind that would make our products and company better and now I got nothing to do.  

I'm staying here for almost three months and 70% of my stay here is boring, I'm getting sick already because of the boredom, I remember the article that I read on the internet, It says there that feeling bored in the office will make you sick and yeah, like what I said, I think it's happening to me right now. I wish that my boss will give me work from time to time not only to kill this boredom but also for me, the gain more experience in the current field  where I am, or if that's impossible to happen, I just want to have courage again to resign and to look for another job, and I would wish that on my next work, there will be more task that will be assigned to me.  

People are great here, working environment is comfortable, the place is accessible but it's boring and I'm seriously suffering everyday.

My Virtual Playground

I'm looking forward to play this game this January, as a gift for both Christmas and New year for my self.