Saving one's self

I just resigned on my first job as an Assistant Arts and Display at Supervalue Inc., and the reason for leaving? Well, it's just the people, basically the whole working environment.  Feeling unwelcome there and somewhat felt someone wants to drag me down.  I am expecting personal growth, friends and extra training to have a better career advancement.  But where are they? Friends and extra training, without those how can I have a personal growth and career advancement.  Giving me tasks using a software where I have a total zero knowledge about it results failure and rejection, and the most worst of all, will result ghastly performance.  Training where are you? Training I need you!  That's why I decided to just resign.  Sounds like I quit but really not at all, I call it "saving my self" rather than quitting.  I really can't stay there, I want but I can't.  I really feel uneasy there and it is somehow killing me psychologically.  But I can say that the company is good and is a good place to start off a job or maybe career, I somehow felt a heart breaking when I left the company because of those HR staffs there, they are really kind, nice, friendly and approachable, especially the one who hired me, that HR staff is the one I used to talked with about my situation in my department and the one who gave me advice and recommendations.  And my unforgettable experience there, is when that HR staff said "Nathan, good luck ah!"  With those simple words being said, I left the building, wearing a smile on my face.

A friend

I am, right now listening to a sad song, well I really don't know if this is really a sad song, because I can't understand it, it's a Korean song by the way.  But it has somehow have a sad tune that makes me think it's a sad song.  And also, right now, I'm thinking of our dog, Sara, that has died several days ago, I'm reminiscing all the memories that I have spent with her during the first time she brought home 'til the last time I had a glimpse on her.  I love Sara very much, she is our first dog that stayed for us for so many years and with that such long period we have come to love her more and more.  I love the way how she plays on me whenever I sit on a chair beside or near to her, the way how she push me when I sit in front of her, the gesture when she is starting to get sleepy, the way she lick her body, the way she scratch her ears, the way when we call her and she just snob us, (she is just like a human) she, when freezing because of the cold weather, the way how she sleep, the way she lay down to an area where there is a sunlight to make her body warm.  I also remember the times when we try to open our screen door, but it won't open because she is sleeping and blocking it.  Her, being a playful dog when she is still young and becomes total opposite of it when she grew older.  She behaves well, she only barks to a total stranger to us, she won't bark to our friends and neighbors.  She is just lovely and cute the way she is even she is sometimes annoying, I missed her, all of her.  I know, she also had a great time with us even though she is being scolded sometimes.  I regret that I am not able to play with her and see her for the last time before she died, but she will definitely be loved and remembered always, and I know she is with God right now and God is now taking care of her.  Bye and Thank you, Sara :)

49 days

Today is the day I've finished my 49 days, I mean, this is the day that I've finished watching the Korean drama series "49 days."  I've enjoy watching this, honestly, I extremely enjoyed and loved this series.  It has a unique plot, tear jerking scenes, and unexpected twists.  I've never watched this kind of series before, this is almost a perfect drama for me and if I would have to rate this, I will rate this as 11/10.

49 days was aired in Philippine channel (ABS-CBN) as a prime time TV show and that's the reason why I've discover this series.  When I saw the commercial of the series, I already have an idea that it a good series to watch, but it didn't make a big impact for me, I wasn't really excited to watch it and has no plan of watching and finishing it though.  But one day, while waiting for my scheduled interview for a job application, I've met a friend and we've talk for while, while waiting for the interview, and it suddenly went to sharing this series to me.  She told positive and nice comments about the series, and she even told that she has a sleepless nights just to be able to finish the series.  And because of that conversation we had and to my curiosity as well, I've tried to watched one of its episode on TV, I've like it and I began to watch it online, and later on, loved it.  I have a lot of tear jerking moments while watching this series and believe me, this is not an ordinary drama.  If I would give comment for the series, I would only give a word for it, "it's a masterpiece."

PS: Stop reading this blog entry, close this tab and go, start watching it!! :D

Prior to my previous blog entry, this is the result for having the English version of the song, "Someday."  I have drawn this because of the happiness I felt for having that song.

Shallow!

Yeah! I feel the opposite emotion I felt last night,  I feel extremely alive and hype right now!  And it's because I found an English version of "Someday, "one of the OST's of my favorite movie, "A crazy little thing called love."  I'm hooked with that song ever since I've watched and heard that song from the movie.  The original version is in Thai language, so I don't understand it, (but I at least understand it because I googled the english translation of the song and you can see it from the English subtitle of the movie) like any other Japanese song that I used to listen with, but still, I love listening with them.  But now today I have found it, an English cover for that song, I already downloaded it from youtube, it is originally a video, but I just converted and ripped the video to make it an mp3, my thanks to the one who upload and made the cover of it.  And now, I can sing along while playing that song in the guitar without having difficulties pronouncing the lyrics of it.  Well, it sounds that I'm an easy to pleased person, but I don't care, that simple thing triggers my happiness and I can't do anything about it, I'll just have to enjoy it and I know God wants this for me.

A pointless emotion

Oh crap, I feel extremely sentimental right now and I don't know what is the reason for this feeling.  I can't think of any things that triggers me to feel this emotion, or maybe, I think, the band I left is the reason.  After I left the band, I've waited for words to come out to them, if they will just let me leave or will convince me not to leave, but I found it useless.  Honestly I've waited for several days, checking out facebook notifications, but I have received none, no words from them convincing me to comeback, no words like no one has left.  I left the band for, yes I know, a very selfish decision,  from what I stated in this blog several days from now, but I thought of this several times, I cannot really stand being left behind by my them and end up leaving them.  Well, you know, that band is the first successful band that I've ever joined and I honestly, I loved it.  But unlike any other things, everything has its beginning and end and every end has its new beginning.  And yes, also, that gives me a relief now, it's clear in my mind that, now, I am officially not a member of that band anymore and even not a loss for them, no hard feelings.

Little Braver (Guitar Cover)

So this is the result of "got nothing to do night." I have made another cover, my guitar cover of Little Braver by Girls Dead Monster (Angel Beats!)

My apologies for the quality of video, I converted it into a smaller size because the original video is around 400mb +, it will take a longer time (maybe forever) just to upload it if I will not convert it =.=

Like whatever

I guess my old band really don't need me at all, besides, it looks like I'm not a loss to them at all, never been being persuaded by them.  Well, I'm just gonna rock the whole night and say hello to my future band!

A noisy night,  has nothing to do, so I decided just to play and rock my guitar :D