My Special One

I know and I'm aware of what I did awhile ago to you and please believe me that I feel sorry for it. I hope that soon, we're gonna be okay, as we welcome the new year's day. Please forgive me for what I've done, I love you, I don't want to lose you and I want this collage to grow bigger with the pictures and moments we will create together in the future, please forgive me :(

I was walking my path alone for years

Until you came and everything has change

Your presence turned the hidden smile on my lips

Your smile softened this stone heart of mine

I learned love, I learned to live beside you

You gave me meaning, you made feel the warm of your love

You enlighten the path I am walking with

You joined my lonely journey

And now we are walking on the same path

Every struggles and obstacles we will face

Hand in hand we will passed those together

To reach the destination we are destined to

To be together for eternity

I love you and I want to tell you

It's you that I always wanted to be with,

For the rest of my life

On that day

It's already been a year had passed. A lot of thing happened, seasons has gone in and out of the country and many things have changed. It was a year ago since I retired from being single and entered to an everlasting pact, to protect and love the princess of my life. It's not an accident nor a coincident, it's not a fantasy or just a dream, that day our paths have crossed together and a beginning of a new chapter in my life is about to start.

We just had our first anniversary last May 18 and we went to an outing to celebrate it to one of the resorts in Laguna. Though there were some conflicts happened on that day, still we've manage to pursue our long awaited plan. Many things happened on the first year of our being together. There are the happy moments, a lot of happy moments, but of course, there will come a time that we've faced obstacle and challenges, trials that tested how much do we love each other, how we will work out together our problems. We've also came to the point where one initiated a break up, but whatever happened, it never pushed through but instead we choose to just forget what happened and continue the relationship we have.

As I mentioned to some of my previous blog posts, we met each other in an online game community. I will never forget the first time I met her in person. She's small but cute and gorgeous and I couldn't hide my smile on that day because in my mind I'm saying "At long last, we've finally met." The first hug, the first holding hands and the first kiss, I will also never forget those things, as that's the sign that we are growing our love and feelings are getting deeper.

As time passes by, we are learning to live with our life with each other sides. We became more comfortable to each other, and slowly we are becoming one. I know this will not be the last anniversary we will celebrate, as we know to our selves that it's going to be forever. I know forever is a very big word, but yes, we believe in that word, because that's what we are. 

I love her so much, I will protect her, I will always be on her side, during both the ups and down, I'll help and cheer her up, I will be her strength and her happiness, I will be her knight and she'll be my princess.

We will continue to walk the path we've chosen, we will walk holding each and other hands, never we will let go of each other, we will always help each other.

On that day, I feel and and knew it was real and it's going to be for eternity.

Tired already. . .

As I walk on this path alone,

the leaves of the tree started to fall,

so do my tears started to roll.

My eyes was swollen, my body is tired,

when everything seems to be falling apart.

No one could see how many times I've fell,

how may times I'd try to get back on the track again.

As I don't know anymore, if I will still continue,

I still see a bright light, an opportunity that's still brand new. 

But the roads are too dark, and I can't go on,

the fear I feel because I am alone

That to fight is the only way,

to reach a brand new day.

I guess this seems to be the hardest way,

but not a reason to run away.

As I know this will be only just in the beginning.

And later on, I'll get used to it, and achieve winning.

Thank you and Good bye!

It's only hours that we are counting until we finally put an end to this chapter of the story of our life, and the new beginning is waiting in the next door, with a bright light shining to us. We may all preparing our resolutions for the next year, preparing for some changes we will be making in our life soon, but are we ready and prepared to leave this year's events that happened to us? Maybe some of us have a bad experience and some have a good one, but either what you experienced, I'm sure, we are thankful for all that happened to us especially this year,

The best way to to say good bye to this year, is to say thank you for all what happened, especially the blessings that God has given to us, the food we ate that gives us energy to stay a day full of hopes, problems that are being solve, the test of God to us that we passed that we made us stronger and for the people that became part of our lives, especially to those who stayed.

First of all, I want to thank God, for answering my prayers, making my wait worth it, converting pains to smile and happiness, also for all what he had given to me and to my family, for giving me blessings more than I deserved, thank you God for this year, hoping for another fruitful new year to us, your guidance, protection and help, Thank you God and I love you so much! :)

For the one person I met this year, well actually it's not us that have met, but our hearts. I want to say thank you. I know you see me always wearing a smile and energetic gestures every time we are together, but I want you to know the reason behind those smile and energy is because of you. With you being in my side, being in my heart, being part of my life, my life expands and became brighter. The year will end but our love for each other, I know, will never be. Thank you for all the experience we had this year, the hugs, holding hands, kisses, hang outs and many more, sometimes we quarrel but I know, it's for us to make our relationship more stronger and I know we don't let the quarrel last a day, we fixed it as soon as possible. You made my year a blast and we know that a new year is coming, let's face and welcome it by giving more love with each other. I love you so much, always and forever, Adrienne :)

Thank you God, Mom, Dad, Sissy, My Friends and Adrienne for completing this year with a smile in my face and heart, I love you all :)

Thank you year 2012 and Good bye! Welcome 2013!!

Unforgettable night, midnight and day

It was unexpected, yet a good experience. Without knowing that that day would be one of the days we will remember. We just hang out to the usual place we used to hang out and when it's already time for her to go to work, she felt she doesn't want to go to. Then I try to tell her to go to her work, but in the end, she decided to let the day pass without attending to office. We hanged out, late at night 'til I decided to just go back home morning on the next day. We hanged out midnight, spend the night 'til morning by walking along Ayala avenue but we ended up going to Global City, have our breakfast at McDonalds and spent some time on a coffee shop nearby. The day was a blast, and for sure, will be remembered.

As I walked that night

It was late Sunday night when I was walking home from Muntinlupa, just came from a band practice, and accompanied my girlfriend at their place. It was fun walking, that I decided to walk than to ride a tricycle, I really do loved doing this.

As I walk during that night, I feel so relaxed, as the music in my earphones plays, my mind was also playing, playing moments of my self with my girlfriend together, during the times when we used to hang out, going to place we don't usually gone, watching movies, deciding where to eat, crazy moments, corny moments, banatan moments, sweet moments and unplanned moments together.

I was like in a music video, walking in the corner of the street with the dim street light opened, watching cars and people that passes by, my hair was waving as the wind blows, I looked at the sky, the moon was so bright and it's a perfect time to reminisce the moments we had together. I missed her, so much, even though we just hanged out a couple of hours ago. I guess, this is what it's like to be, to fell in love so deeply, in one person, whom you want to keep forever, for the rest of your life.

Never thought that I would be like this

It's been five months, since the time I've enter into a relationship, something that I never foreseen I would be in before. 

Sometimes, the things that we don't expect to happen, happens, sometimes, a kind of person that we don't expect we are going to be, are the ones we are becoming and be keeping for the rest of our life. I've never expected that love would conquer me, as I know to my self that I'm not really like this, I was actually an introvert, loner, snob and self centered person. But things have changed, and I started to care, not for someone whose family or friend related, but to a stranger, once a stranger and nothing to care about, but now became a huge part of my life, the one who would complete me and my dreams in the future.

Feeling depressed when she's not around, missing her badly when not seeing her for a couple of days, day dreaming of her during spare time and thinking of her, the moment I woke up until I sleep at night. Taking care of her would be the best job I've been, even though no salary is being paid to me, as long she'll appreciate it and pay me back with love. It really feels good to have someone you care for, someone you would care for the entire of your life, someone you've dedicated your life for.

We may have some twists in our relationship, but that would never ever change my feelings or would make me tired of loving and taking care of her. As I've said to my self and to God that I would do anything for her, just to make her okay and happy.

Thinking of future is not really my trait at all, I mean thinking of my self, playing and running with my children while my wife is watching and smiling back at us. This is the first time that this happened to me, and I'll make sure that this would not remain as a thought only, someday, this thought of mine would come to reality and the things that I've been always dreaming now will eventually experience by me and her in the future.

Patience is a virtue. . .

Good things comes to those whose willing to wait. . .

Waiting would be easier, because I know, we're going to work on these together, and in the end, the wait will be worth it. . .

Where it all started

Every day, every night, every time

Every day, every night, every time, I always ask God to protect you, to get you away from all evil and harm. I always asked God to give you strength so you can carry and hold on, on the situation you're experiencing right now, that someday it will fade and everything will become okay. I know God has plans for everyone, for me, my family and for you, we just need to patiently wait and have faith in him. I say to God that I would help him in giving you strength, because this is the least I could do for now. Together, we'll patiently wait for that day to come that you can already get out the to that situation, together, we'll believe in him for that time to come. 

You're a very important person to me, that I want you to be okay every time.

Someday

To tell the truth, right now, all I'm wishing and the biggest goal in my life is to get you out the life you're experiencing right now. Someday, I will be able to get you out on the situation you're currently on, where you can no longer experience heavy arguments, extreme breaking down, and feeling giving up on everything. I will make sure that someday, we'll live together peacefully, where we can enjoy our time, together with our future family. Someday, we'll be living in a place that are free from negative things you're experiencing right now. I will make sure that, I'll be strong for you, for us, to be your strength during the downs of your life. Someday, I would go back to this page again and probably reading this blog post again and will whisper in my self, " At last, I did it."

Never I will. . .

I am just concern about you, everything that can harm you or would be bad for you. I'm doing all my best just to cheer you up, to make you happy, to lift you up when you're breaking down. I would do everything just to make you fine, anything just to make you okay, I'll sacrifice my other personal things, scheduled meetings or hang out just to be with your side. Even I'm not or I cant' make on your side, I make sure that I'm going to make a way to get in touch with you, to make you feel that I'm just here when you needed me, to hug you on a long cold nights, to kiss you when you're breaking down, to hold yo when you feel weak. I'm just right here, doing everything the best I can, just to make you okay. I just want to know and wish that all the things I'm doing is enough, just want to know that my efforts are working, making you feel fine and okay. I'll take care of you, won't abandoned you or give on you, never I will.

To have that someone. . .

It's good to know that you have that someone whom will be there for you, not only during the ups of your life but also the downs. When you're sad there she is trying to cheer you up and when you're stressed and just want to surrender, there she is cheering and lifting you up. It's good to know that there is this someone whom will be there for you no matter what happened and anything will do just to make you okay.

Once a stranger

We were just strangers before, we were once have our own life and path that are taking, until we came to the point that our path crossed with each other. These paths joined together and now we are taking it hand to hand, moving forward to the time we called future.

If I just can. . .

Every time she breaks down, being in a bad mood, having a bad day, or anything that makes her emotion down, I can't help but to worry and end up being sad. It tears a part of my heart every time she feels down.

I'm trying all the best I can do just to cheer her up, but sometimes I'm ending up thinking I'm a no help at all. If could only put her out of the situations that causes of her breaking down, If I could just be always right by her side if she needed me. If I can do more to make her cheer up. If I just have the power to make her okay in an instant when she is breaking down. If I just can. . .

The rest of my life started when I fell in love with you

I never knew that I would be needing something I don't need before, or someone I didn't even think of that would very important and special to me now and in the near future.

I'm just living my simple life before, work, play games, hang out with friends, eat, spend money for useless things and dream childish things. Dreaming of living alone with my dream house, with a gaming/multimedia room and music room. Planned to have business and play games at my dream house. But that was before, until something and someone unexpected came. Something I didn't now I would feel and someone I didn't knew I would take care of.

I just played a game, I just replied a text, I just spent sometime answering a phone call and then after a couple of time, I fall, I fell in love with someone once a stranger to me but now became one of the most important people to me, the one I want to spent the rest of my life with.

From what I remember before, this is not really me, I mean, to really fell in love, I was just like a snob, stone hearted, numb and a loner person before. Yes, I used to fell in love before, but this time it's different, I could feel my heart beating fast before whenever I am with the girl I love, but this time, even though I'm not with her, even just by thinking her, I could feel the love is conquering my whole self and body and ending up smiling.

I really love spending time with her and whenever I'm with her, I could feel so much happiness, I even think that I am the very happy person in the world whenever I'm with her. I wouldn't care where we go, where we hang out, even it's far, as long as I'm with her. There are things that I dream to do with her like, traveling with her, have vacation with her, sleep with her and many more, but of course, to be with her in a place we could say, "Our home." 

From dreaming of living alone before, now dreaming of living with her. Play with her in the game room, play music with her in the music room, spend time with her in our home.

I'm really happy and contended with her, I couldn't ask for more, she may not be my first, she may be my third girlfriend, but I'll make sure she will be my last.

It's you that arrived, It's love that I found and I want you to be my last.. The rest of my life started when I fell in love with you.

Adventure Time!

It's Saturday morning and on this day, we decided that we are going to hang out, but the question is where?

Don't know where to go, we spent some time sitting on a bench in Santana grove and thinking of a place where to hang out, SM southmall, SM Bicutan, Festival Mall, Market Market, Alabang town center? But ended up of going to Festival Mall instead. While hanging out in Festival mall, walking, chatting, do some games playing, her mom called on her phone, and told her that she needs to go to her grand mother's place in Paco Manila, and I decided to accompany her there, and then unexpectedly unplanned, an adventure has begun.

So we took a bus from Alabang to Quirino Hi-way, and from Quirino Hi-way, we took some walk, looking for an ATM do withdraw some cash and after that, she went to her grand mother's place. After that, since we planned earlier to watch a movie, we decided to just watch on Robinson's Manila instead of going back to Festival Mall. We watched Step Up Revolution, I'm not a fan of dancing, but I enjoyed the movie, they are somewhat making some trouble by means of dancing, and it's kinda cool, like what in the movie said, "Sometimes, it's good to break the rule" I don't remember exactly the exact sentence but that's at least the idea.

Then after the movie, we took some walk, chit chatting and etc., then we decided to go back to festival mall so if she already needs to go home, it will be just near to their place. We spent sometimes in Festival mall, had our dinner and grab an opportunity to have our moment with each other before we went home.

Honestly, this is the first time I've done this, having an adventure/city hopping with someone very special to me, well I think I've done this before, but I can't remember, but I know this time, I really enjoyed it and I had a lot of fun spending time with her. If only I could stop the time that day.

I'm not an outgoing person, I usually stay at home most of the time, it's not that I don't like, but I think it's a complete waste of time, but that was me before. Now, already gotten out of my comfort zone and I don't mind whether where will I go as long as I am with her.

Ash and Pikachu

A status that made my day :)

A day full of adventure and sweetness

It's a day full of adventure and sweetness. It was not on the plan, we just want to hang out right after our work and then after, go home and rest. But it doesn't look like it turned out like that because we still don't want to let go of each other yet. 

I was on the meeting and thought that it will be finished by around right after lunch by 12:00 noon or by 1:00 pm, but it was extended up to 2:30 pm, well as for a company meeting, it's normal. But the matter is, there is someone waiting for me, I need to get where my girlfriend was, because she's waiting me there from 11:00pm on wards, a couple of hours of waiting. I feel guilty about it, I say sorry but she said that, it's okay and everything is fine, that she is not mad or something.

So the hang out began. Of course, sharing stories with each other, walk together while talking, teasing each other and when being teased will end up hugging. It was on SM Sucat, but she want to go somewhere else, so we decided to go to Festival Mall instead. Of course, when we get there we still do what we've done on SM, but first we had our merienda-dinner meal. Again, talk, walk, tease and laugh, making every minutes and seconds worth because time is limited and parting time is nearly there.

It's already time to say good bye speeches but an idea was put up. I said that I'm going with her, I'm going to accompany her home, but she didn't let me because she said that it was hassle for me and it's far from my place and so on and so on. But I ask something, if her best friend's place was really near from their home and said let's go and visit her. Excitement was build and without second thought, she said yes and then we went there.

When we got there, her best friend was not yet home. We waited for an hour but still not yet home. We just decided to go where she was, we'll just visit her there. But again, when got there, a guy told that she already left there about a couple of hours ago. We call her best friend and she said that she already got home and decided to just go back at their place. But before we went there, an unexpected thing happened, we are talking about something but I'm facing in the opposite direction but when I'm about to face her, her face was coming close to me, her lips coming close to my lips, and then we kissed, but not for a short time that we usually do.

It looks like nothing happened after, but deep inside me, I was so, well it was an unexplainable feeling but it feels good, honestly. And going back, we went back to her best friend's place and at last she was there. We stayed there for about 30 minutes, do some talking and other things. And after that, it's really need to say good bye.

The day was really worth it, no hours, minutes or even seconds was wasted, my time is really worth it whenever I'm with her. I love being with her, If we can just be together every time but we know that there is always limitation but still we're really happy that even though our schedule was conflict with each other, we are able to give time being together.

Making my heart smile, every time

There are some things that I can't say directly, I'm too shy to say or it's bit too early to say. In my mind, sometimes, I'm having thoughts of spending my life with her, I can't really deny the fact that I used to imagine my self sitting beside her smiling and laughing together on a place called home. I just can't help thinking about these things, being with her today, tomorrow and in the future.

I always hold on to these thoughts, that if we can't be together in present, then there is still future. I understand that we can't be together every time and I'm fine with it. Every time we are spending time together, it's all worth it, not even a single second when we are together are being put into waste, I just love being with her.

She is a very special and important person to me, a friend, a best friend, my lover. I want to be her strength to her weaknesses, the one who will cheer her up when she's down, the one will erase the sadness in her face. Without doing anything, with just thinking about you you are making smile, you made my heart smile, every time.